98. Time...

I'm winging it today, so bear with me. 

Time, it's such a funny thing. One minute can seem like a lifetime and a decade can seem like a blink of an eye. I don't understand it. I do know that the time we have on this earth is a mere blink of eye. The things that we go through on a daily basis just to get through the day, seem like nothing twenty years later. Have you ever said to yourself, "Oh to be a kid again!" I have! And then I remember that I hated being a kid! I hated my teen years! I hated School! Why would I ever want to replay that??  Because if I knew then what I know now, I would have played all my cards differently. 

    But right now, I am sitting in a moment that seemed like yesterday, but here we are three years later. I knew it was time. three years ago today, I kissed my dad on the forehead, I told him that we would all be okay. I told him to go dance with his brother and sister, to go fishing with his dad. That he didn't have to fight anymore. I told him that I will meet him when my time came. I went to bed that night, knowing that my world would be different in the morning. My world would no longer consist of my dad. My sweet grandma would soon be burying her third child. And while the entire world still kept moving, my world would stop for just a moment. And when that call came in the middle of the night, I praised God that he was no longer suffering. But I longed for one more conversation. 

   I can't say, that if I knew that was going to be his last day, I would have done anything differently. I had four years with him, that we did not expect to have. I loved my dad fiercely that whole time. I spent as much time as I possibly could with him.  That doesn't take away from the fact that I still pick up the phone to call him. That I start to think about making plans to go see him and remember that those days are past. I miss my dad every day. But I know these are the moments that seem like a lifetime. And when it's my time to go see him. It will still seem like yesterday that he made his departure from this earth. 

2 Peter 3:8, "But you must not forget this one thing, dear friends: A day is like a thousand years to the Lord, and a thousand years is like a day."

Matthew 5:4, "God blesses those who mourn, for they will be comforted."

The reunion with my dad will be awe inspiring one day! My first and foremost thing I long to hear, is Jesus saying, "Well done my good and faithful servant!" Matthew 25:23