Where does the time go?? Sorry for the delay!!
I wrote this a little while ago, I was having a really hard time with the whole concept. My heart was hurting, and as much as it hurt to write it, I couldn't look at it again enough to type it. God is good! He heals wounds, even the one's we don't understand. I know there was a purpose for the event, I just may not understand it on this side of heaven. When wounds are so fresh, it is often times hard to have a fresh perspective. This was written while the knife was still fresh in the wound. Please forgive my vulnerability.
Have you ever had someone that you knew, someone that you grew to love! Someone that had your corner all your life, pulled you out of pits you didn't even know you were in! Someone that you trusted with your inner most secrets! Someone that you entrusted your children to. You knew that your children's hearts, and minds, and their whole beings were safe with this person. Someone that you would push out of the way and take a bullet for! Just to have that person turn around out of the blue, stab you in the back, watch you suffer, turn around walk away, as if you never meant a thing to them??
How do you move on? How do you forgive them? How do you trust anyone else after that? How do you create healthy boundaries, without those boundaries turning into enemy camp walls? Those walls that become so thick and tall, that your own family can't penetrate them!
With wounds so fresh and sore, it is so hard to fathom any right answers to those questions! BUT! Then there is God! And what He promised us! Without God in our lives, it would have been extremely hard to go to an extremely dark place! To wallow in self-pity. But we have God! He reminds us that this life is short! We as humans will fail, and we will fail each other! This Earth is not our home. We are just passing by. We will experience pain here, that we may never understand. But GOD! But GOD! But GOD! He always has a plan, even though we cannot see it. The pain we carry, it is so very possible that we have created that pain in someone else. Even in our best intentions! Think about that!
HOW MUCH GRACE WOULD YOU WANT THAT PERSON TO GIVE YOU?
Psalms 147:3 says, "He heals the broken hearted and bandages their wounds."
When things like this happen, when it's super hard! It's hard to not be angry! It's hard to not stay angry! God is waiting to see how we will react! Will we blame Him for allowing it? Will we trust Him to fix it? Will we look to Him for help and strength? Will we give Him our brokenness? When the enemy attacks us in these ways, it is always our choice in how we deal with it! And whether or not we are going to hand it over to God and let Hime walk us through it! Or blame Him and shut Him out.
Let me remind you of Matthew 6:14, "If you forgive those who sin against you, you Heavenly Father will forgive you." The deeper the wound, the harder this seems! With God, all things are possible! Do not carry that anger and frustration! Let God carry it!
Proverbs 3:5 says, "Trust in the Lord with all your heart; do not depend on your own understanding."
So who do you need to forgive today? Who do you need to hand over to God? What pain or anger have you been festering that is only hurting you?
PRAY! Start that healing process!
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